"Make sure that what you are doing and striving for is going to be worth any sacrifices you will have to make along the way. If it's a relationship, job, anything in life."

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Is The Juice Worth The Squeeze...

The following blog is for July 29th-31st.

Friday we took it easy and just relaxed we had a big weekend a head of us!  Saturday we got up and had breakfast and then headed out!  We went to Plank South this time.  There were two playgrounds there.  We had a great time.  After we did some shopping then some lunch and a nap!

That afternoon we did some cooking.  We made some fried zucchini.  Quinn is my little helper and she loves it so much.  I love when we get to cook together.

Later that day we headed over to my parents house for some swimming next door then some dinner.  The pool was great!  Quinn did so well.  We had some friends over for dinner and then went home for bed!

Sunday we got up and went to church and then after our nap played in the house!  We played tag, did puzzles, and just ran around.  Aunt Ro and Rosalie George came over to say hello!  We hung out then  we went back to mommies house!

Playing on the playground!



Wow we had the whole place to our selves!


Tire Swing





My Old School!


Let's do some cooking


My little helper!

Look at how good they look!

We went swimming!!!



Down we go!


The water feels great!



Daddy does all the work!




Will Joined the fun!







Pete took my pictures! And his it seems

He's a funny guy...


Here they are chilling...


Sunday we threw the soap!


Just dancing..

Chilling with some girls...

The weekend was great we had such a blast and summer is going so well.  I'm enjoying our time so much and Quinn is doing so well.  She is about 99.99% potty trained!  I would round up to 100.... I can't wait for our next adventure.  Fall i have some things planned and I can't wait for it to cool down also!

I wasn't sure if I was going to add this next section but i decided to and feel the blog does make people wonder if the Juice is worth the Squeeze...  

Sunday i got dressed up and dropped Quinn back to her mom's house.  I went over to church to meet with one of my highest advisors my minister Vickie.  The past several months i have been working on signing the final divorce papers but never could bring my self because i just never wanted to...  I really can't explain it just don't want to be divorced.  I met Vickie at church and went in to pray while she came in to the sanctuary.  I wanted to sign the paper there because that is were we married and I guess I just wanted to end it where it began.  I am glad Vickie was with me I wasn't sure at first but she was good company and made the process well she helped me through it.  I'm not sure I would have been able to do it because I would have just keep pushing it back...  For her coming I am very grateful...

Divorce for everyone is different, some are happy to move on and get it done, some never move on.  Me i never wanted to be divorced.  Since i was a kid i told my self i would never let it happen.  The past almost 2 years have been a test of faith to say the least.  People ask me why i still wear my ring, people ask me how I'm doing or how i keep busy or if i miss my daughter or my wife.  Questions that are not easy to answer but I look to friends family and my faith to guide me...  

I dressed up because i figured i was dressed up on the day i got married it only felt right.  Vickie put together some prayers we red and on the table on the alter were we actually signed the marriage papers I signed them.  I tried not to think or feel i just sign and hold it together...  We did some more prayers and just talked after.  I know over time things will get better but for now i just don't really feel like it...  

I had two copies of the papers so the other one i signed and handed over to my lawyer...  I still don't feel like its finished maybe because i haven't gotten them back.   I didn't add this section in to gain support or anything i just wanted this blog to be true and also let people know that yes Quinn and i have fun but my life isn't perfect and just about having fun and joking with Quinn.  It has been a hard and sometimes just down painful road.  I try to just wake up now and go to work, see Quinn when i can and just work on my house and well work my 2 jobs...  I'm trying...    But talking to Vickie helps so much because here words are so kind and she understands...  But the past couple months have been so difficult and a test.  Sometimes i test my faith I know life is a test and sometimes we test our faith but if we just keep it i think we'll be okay... 

I hope who ever reads this blog understands I entered this in because it was a part of my life a big one and I really don't know what to say at the moment except it hurts...  

Thank you for your loving words everyone and your love.

So I end by asking is the Juice worth the Squeeze... I will always answer.... Yes...

I love you all
Christopher.

2 comments:

  1. Happy moments, hard times, that's life, but how nice is when we found balance through faith.

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  2. Hi Chris,
    I am so proud of the man you have become. You are an awsome Dad. You have grown so much, set goals, worked hard, and continue to grow each day. As for the curve ball that life sent you, just keep the Lord and your faith very close. Love you bushels. Aunt ro

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